bored.

kinilaw na starfish.

I have never felt so miserable. Well, more of feeling guilty. For taking these pretty sea stars off Batangas. It has been a week since we went wakeboarding in Calatagan. my arms hurt the next day and my friend and i decided to dive the shallow parts of South China Sea. we rode a banca and marveled at the sights of it. Especially at everything under the waters, where colorful living creatures thrive and peacefully wander (?) about. I admit having to lust over these things, so charming, so tempting to take, and bring home as souvenirs. I feel bad, it feels worse than being a foreigner smuggling exotic animals off our islands. I take these and instead of caging them, or put them in salty aquariums, would dry them out in the sun and put them on display.

I should be arrested by the animal rights police, the WWF, the DENR, the animal welfare society, National Geographic channel, or what have we. I feel so terrible...

we caught about 20 or so, and returned the rest, and brought home about 4 starfishes each...

Now I am haunted by the salty smell of the sea, and the corpses of starfish...I left them in the garden to dry, but they turn out to rot and deform under the sun.

i heard from a lady from Romblon, that they sprinkle vinegar on them so that the insides would not attract flies. i heard from someone that rock salt does help eliminate odor and would help dry them out. i read that 70% alcohol would kill the bacteria and eventually dry the starfish's insides. i even tried using Vodka, and Fundador (45% and 36% alcohol), whatever alcohol based drinks we have here in the cupboard just to *choke* kill them....

i did it. i did it. i did it.

They deserve to be treated better than this. There is no one else to be blamed but myself for the destruction of Earth. i am afterall part culprit.

it may seem that i am over reacting, but i can't help but say it and confess. i ask for your forgiveness Lord...